The Orb of Love
Brian Krebs' near-death experience
Brian Krebs' near-death experience appears in Kevin Williams' NDE book entitled Nothing Better Than Death. It is reprinted below.
I had my first near-death experience when I was a child, perhaps at the age of two or three. This would be about 1953. It involved me drowning. My memories of it were of seeing my body below me. I remember seeing a bright, warm, loving orb above me. I panicked Dad and Mom below. I didn't know that it was anything to talk about and no one would have believed me. It never was a thing I felt I had to relate.
Then in 1971 ... I had been knifed with a stiletto that severed an artery above my liver. I remember looking up and seeing a light. I then looked down at my body and then I was confronted by at least two beings. They were human in appearance and they seemed to float in midair. I realized I was far above my body and not in any earthly space. The beings tried to keep me from going to the light. I don't know why, they just seemed terrified and didn't want me to go. But I did. I shot up like an arrow through what can only be described as a tunnel.
I saw the tunnel as a peripheral blur of stars and I saw a loving light before me. Then I stopped. I was there with this orb of glowing love and understanding. It didn't seem foreign to me. It was not frightening. It was totally assuring and there was no feeling of anything but my awe and the love and knowledge and wisdom that this orb projected. In size, it would be not like looking at the sun, but looking at the Earth when you are on it. It was immense and total, and its power was love.
I felt a presence next to me, a man, and he asked if I was ready for my life review. I said, "Yes."
All of this was not a verbal thing, but just a knowledge. Then I saw like a HO scale train set below, a city. I went to this city and I went through my life. I went through every moment and every feeling. I was not afraid as I was still in the light. I talked with the man about my life. But I do not remember any specifics.
I then remember standing, as it where, in the light of the Orb of love. I felt the goodness and love and knowledge of it. My mind was in a state of deep, deep, concentration of thought.
I then went to twelve beings of greater knowledge. They were in front of me and stood in a row. They were not human. They had no feelings of anything like judgment or authority, but seemed strong in themselves. They seemed taller than me and they wore silver white robes. They had white skin, large heads and large eyes. I do not remember them having mouths. Above them was a spirit. It was like a star as we see one from Earth, but in size it appeared the same size as the heads of the beings. The spirit went to my left and hovered above the first being. I remember it was like a video of knowledge that sprung from the beings' hands, which were held in front of them.
Each being had something to relate. They opened the knowledge they had when the spirit moved above them. The last told me what I could do if I came back and the significance of it. I only remember seeing a young man with his head held back in pain as if his neck was injured. I said, "Oh! Aaron! My son!"
They said, "No, not that son."
And I realized who they meant. (In 1978, my only other child was born, a son).
Then I made the decision to come back to Earth. And I remember that it was such a hard decision. It was so difficult because everything there was so beautiful and there was so, so, much love. I had the feeling of freewill, yet a feeling of duty was present - of obligation. And the second that I realized that I shot back into my body.
After two near-death experiences, and having studied many near-death experiences, I am convinced that there is order to the experience.
I do get angry when people come to conclusions about the near-death experience because they think it is not orderly and, therefore, find it to be a part of our imaginative minds. For the ones that have not heard this, here goes:
RULE 1: At any given microsecond, you may return to your body. You have a trauma of some kind which makes you leave your body. You might feel a vibration. You might feel nothing, just that you are suddenly out of your body.
RULE 2: Nobody remembers every single detail and the meaning to it while having a near-death experience.
So, now you are out of your body you may look down and see your body. You may take off for another room or zip back into your body. You may go into the void. This is the home of many a grim story. See, after death you may end up quite stuck in this void. It lacks one thing: love. It is the hell the Pope just figured out. It is not being of love, not recognizing it. Those that are stuck there may frighten you by just being or by intentional gestures to frighten you. They are stuck and they are confused and they will put the "HELL" in hell.
RULE 3: Beyond this point your soul must be convinced your body is dead.
See, sometimes things happen that don't cause death. I mean we all ultimately live to tell of near-death experiences, but we must be convinced the body business is behind us to go further.
So, there you are outside the body. Now those who love you might show up. They do so for a couple of reasons. One, they may want you to stay, that is, go back to your body. Or they may want you to think of love. I just love the way Dr. George Rodonaia said it. While describing the void, he said that he thought, "I am and if I am why for not can I be happy?"
And he was. Then he thought, "If I am and I can be happy, why for not then can I feel love?"
And he did. You see, the way out of the void is simple. You must think of love.
Now if you are a Christian and you think of Jesus and you see Jesus as love, then you will be thinking of love. To recognize it as a reality, that is the key to getting out of the void. Now, you are in the void and you think of love and you are love and you will see love, just a speck, but you will concentrate on it and then you will connect with it. This connection is called the tunnel. It is a pathway to the Creator.
I recently heard someone talking about taking some sugar and some water and mixing them together. The sugar would disappear and the water would become sugar water. But in time the water would evaporate and the sugar would remain as sugar and the water would turn to vapor. The point was that the sugar had the memory of the water and the water the memory of the sugar. As I thought this out, I tried to think how to explain it better. Being of a scientific background, I thought:
Ok, let's put the sugar and water together in a test tube. Let's mix them. Then to speed things up, let's add heat, which makes vibrations and causes the water to turn to vapor. But wait. Let's put a rubber stopper in the test tube and a glass tube leading to another test tube. That would allow the water to reestablish itself as water in the other tube.
You see, then you have water with a memory of the sugar and the sugar with the memory of the water. You also have a very good model to explain how to get out of the void. As the tube concentrates the water, so the tunnel concentrates the spirit.
Now, many things can happen in the tunnel. Say for instance you get depressed and you gobble down too many pills. You would choke if not for the washing of booze you gave them. You might end up in the tunnel off to the side where you are requested to think. So you sit there thinking. Some other soul would pass right on by either noticing or not noticing. Things like earthy problems can be worked out there, out of the void and in the tunnel. Ultimately though, if you don't return to your body, you zip right past all this and end up at a point that you may refer later to the end of the tunnel. It may be, though, that you are in one of the rooms of the tunnel or zones. There you see a garden, a river, a gate, and someone will appear to help you decide whether you should go on or think a while or talk or be reassured enough to return to your body. But, go through the gate or over the river past the decision to go back or stay and think, and you end up at the end of the tunnel. Now there at the end of the tunnel is the Creator.
RULE 4: If you make it to the end of the tunnel you will feel more love and acceptance and wisdom and knowledge and understanding than you ever have. And you will remember it. And you will not leave it out of your description of your experience. There you are and there is love - overwhelming, pure, beautiful love. Now let's not forget Rule 1 that you may at any time zip right back into your body. You should begin now to see why there are so many different descriptions of the near-death experience: because a person may go only to a given point and that the description of what they saw will be limited to that level.
So, now you are there in front of the Creator, and you might well see your Higher Self. You will then go through a life review. You do this in the light of the love of the Creator. In this love, you see all you have done wrong and right and the effects of it and you are unafraid because the Creator's love is there. There is nothing but the truth. That accomplished, you may (Rule 1) zip back into you body. You may then do whatever you think you need to and those descriptions vary.
One consistent theme is that you have spirits to help you. I, as Dannion Brinkley did, had twelve "spirits" that gave forth information about the past, the present and the future. They may help you decide to stay or go back to Earth. Once the decision is made, zipppppp you're back.
"Think of stepping on the shore and finding it heaven, of touching a hand and finding it God's, of breathing new air and finding it celestial, of waking up in glory and finding it home." - Don Wyrtzen